Tuesday, July 21, 2020

105 days until November 3... Time for Hope and Change

I'm starting to feel a glimmer of hope for the first time in 3.5 years, and especially the last 4 months.  I'm not hopeful that no one I know will be touched by this virus.  With the self-centeredness of every other person in the US, that's just wishful thinking. 

I'm not hopeful that people will lose their congitive dissonance amid the pandemic - great article that sheds light on what makes reasonable folks shake their heads...
https://www.theatlantic.com/ideas/archive/2020/07/role-cognitive-dissonance-pandemic/614074/

I'm not even hopeful that my small goals of keeping mind, body and spirit in some semblance of shape over the rest of the course of this quarantine time will prevail.  I'm hopeful that with time, effort and dedication we'll be able to flip the House and Senate and oust 45 for someone who has a clue how to function within the structure of government.  Can you think of 1 good thing that has occurred since 2016?  He donated his salary, we got what we paid for in that sense.  He expanded VA health coverage.  Then tried to eliminate coverage for those with pre-existing conditions and children.  He took a stand on immigration... now, we couldn't pay anyone to immigrate to the US and the birth rate is falling.  Other countries make up for that with the richness of cultural immigration - new experiences, new businesses, new educational opportunities. 

Flint MI still has crappy water, homelessness and mental health issues are not a new thing.  Unemployment is at an all time high and those on furlough can't obtain new jobs or risk losing the tenure and benefits built up over years of service.  The cost of living keeps increasing even while the majority of the population is out of work or overworked as essential employees.  Those that have, have more and those that have not, have even less.  In the 3.5 years since 45 took office, we've paid more taxes - not less.  The tax laws that used to give us a break for supporting social service agencies were removed, and with it the incentive to donate and support those resources.  It's not like the government is going to fully fund those resources any time soon.  The cost to the US for the aid provided through the pandemic is between $5-$8 TRILLION dollars.  Money we didn't have for homeless programs, or elder care or food banks or mental health resources but to keep the economy alive, of course there is money to be had.

With the targeted maligning of Democratic run states getting second rate services and PPE and now getting federal agents to "help restore order" when help hasn't been requested and citizens are being abducted and attacked - we used to watch this kind of stuff on World News Tonight in the Middle East and think, wow, glad we have freedom and protection from that kind of anarchy.  When your own government is responsible for the anarchy?!?!?

Sunday, July 19, 2020

Pandemic lockdown - July - month 5 - day 349567


Only one 1 blog post in 2020 so far... things have progressed to a new low.  45 wants to not report Covid cases or death to the CDC so that numbers will be reduced.  Dude, you've stepped in it so far at this point, that your election campaign is over before it started.  Or we can only hope that the longer this viral threat hangs over our heads, more will see that your inept, selfish, moronic form of providing no guidance for this country is leading to our decline.

When we rang in 2020 5 months ago, little did we know we would be staring our self-serving, entitled, privileged, racist, white power, defend my freedoms against your safety selves in the face in heated debates over wearing masks to reduce the spread of the virus.  After 5 months of being requested to only go our for essentials and essential trips, we are still only on phase 2 of a 5 phase reopening plan.    The traffic flow lights are back in use on the freeways.  The rate of seeing ambulances on the road is higher.  The lines at stores and businesses are longer and parking lots are fuller than they have been in months.  People are done with the virus but it is in no way finished with us.

There is clinical evidence that 100% participation wearing masks would protect from virus and end the threat within 6-8 weeks.  People feel it is a violation of their rights, freedoms and privilege and refuse, even though the life they save may not be their own.  Stories of people who refused mask wear and are now Covid-19 death statistics are common.  Common sense not so much.

Scientists in Finland have developed a breathalyzer test to screen in 4 seconds for presence of coronavirus even in asymptomatic people.  This is worthy of Nobel Prize work.  Has our government commended this discovery?  We'll be lucky if they even offer it to the US after the way we provided no help to the rest of the world during this pandemic.  We have literally shot ourselves in the foot to avoid the fight.  While our fearless leader played more golf than ever.

My prediction is that 2020 will be the year that wasn't.  It wasn't fun, it wasn't productive, it wasn't notable for anything but that our wish to not work, stay home and have time for restful pleasures was not all it was cracked up to be.  How's that retirement plan looking now?  If I can't travel, forget about it. 

For the first 2 months of quarantine, I was considered essential employee, I was tracking the weekly losses at my place of work - a retreat center we hosted our last group on the weekend of  March 9.  One of the participants was busily planning her daughter's outdoor wedding, with thoughts of weather, not virus spread causing issues. At the end of April, after we'd cleaned, painted, reorganized and maintained our facility with many overdue tasks, we were furloughed and due to the 400Kvolume of claims put on unemployment, as well as a foreign scam/fraud issue to clear up, had a 9 week wait for our first payment.

For the first several weeks, it was as if the cities were ghost towns, no one went out except to pick up fast food and groceries.  Many stores were closed that were not deemed essential - hardware and home improvement, craft and cannabis stores flourished in the down time.  People learned how to sew masks and donate time talent and treasure to make a difference in the PPE supply line.  Stores began to offer curbside pickup of online orders.  Amazon reaped the benefits of stay at home workers upgrading their home office surroundings.  Coworkers got to know each other's pets by name and personality disrupting Zoom meetings.

We learned patience, compassion, grace and the luxury of a relaxation of time and date commitments.  Quickly that gave way to grief over lost job identity, fury over the slightest difference of opinion and rage over those who get in the way of logic, science and medical advances on this deadly virus.  Then the George Floyd murder combined with many others over decades and centuries inflamed the Black Lives Matter movement to the point where gathering in large numbers to protest trumped our fear of the virus.  Protesters wore masks and in the areas of large protest turnout, amazingly no spike in virus numbers.  Almost like the intent balanced the risk, or divine intervention.  The battle cry to defund the police was taken up and seemed to some to be advocating anarchy, but in reality it is only a call to fund the resources that have always been underfunded - mental health resources, domestic abuse resources, homeless resources, deescalation training for police so more lethal force becomes unnecessary.

2020 will be a year we may wish to "do over" let the seniors have their social events associated with the last year of high school, give families time to enlist ways to protect their most frail members from viral exposure, give of our stimulus check if not needed to forces that help those at greatest risk - the homeless, refugees, immigrants, indigenous peoples fight the virus because if it takes hold of any of these at risk communities, we all fail.  We failed to protect the least among us because we sought to insulate our own from fear and death.

People want to overthrow our Governor for taking a stand and trying to stem the spread of disease.  He's never lead Washington through a pandemic before, no one has.  But when he saw the lack of leadership and control at the national level failing, he had to do something.  A true damned if you do/damned if you don't situation.  Which may cause him to lose his reelection this year - to people who are all invested in $30 license tabs?  For real?  Cheap license tabs over public safety? 

We've been in quarantine 5 months in WA.  Normal will never be the same as it was before.  What have we learned and at what costs? 

Saturday, April 11, 2020

"Father, forgive Them for They Know Not What They Do..."


In the first Century, Christians would gather quietly to celebrate Eucharist in small groups to avoid being detected by the government at the risk of being persecuted or killed.  As we gather in small groups on technologically enhanced service modes, we may have considered ourselves similar to the early Christians, but above persecution and threat.  Hiding out in our homes during this pandemic for safety and to preserve our health while connecting with others in the same boat and who share our values and place spirituality and religion as valuable in daily life.

Last night was Good Friday, a solemn night of Holy Week when we reflect on the events leading to the crucifixion of Jesus Christ.  Our small local church was holding services on the Zoom app.  We started promptly at 7pm and our reader was midverse in the first lesson when we were bombarded with "bots".  Avatars broke in and spewed racist, vile and non-family friendly garbled speech just to interrupt the service as is their method of entertainment or the personification of their possession.  Some of our children and families were trageted.  We were stunned, shocked and at a loss for words.

If you have ever read of demonic possession in the Bible and wondered what it would sound like, we had a taste of that when our service was interrupted.  We saw images we didn't intend to see and heard speech spewing forth hate, vile and repulsive words used for shock value - similar to what people might have heard uttered by those possessed in Jesus' time.  It was shocking, it was evil and I just wanted to make it stop and go away.   Later, I thought, we might have all unmuted and started chanting "Father, forgive them for they know not what they do."  Jesus spoke these words as the Roman soldiers nailed his body to the cross.  Was this our test to extend faith, forgiveness and the touch of God to those who hacked us? 

Was their intent motivated by Satanic involvement to disrupt our service?
Was this an opportunity to remind us that evil exists in the world and manifests itself in a variety of ways in those who have no spiritual presence in their lives?
Did this happen for a reason?

I think yes on all counts. My answer to these questions came later in the hastily rescheduled service when we recited the following prayer:



Let us pray for all who have not received the Gospel of Christ;
For those who have never heard the word of salvation
For those who have lost their faith
For those hardened by sin or indifference
For the contemptuous and the scornful
For those who are enemies of the cross of Christ and persecutors of his disciples
For those who in the name of Christ have persecuted others
That God will open their hearts to the truth, and lead them to faith and obedience.

Did this happen for a reason?  I think it was to give us the opportunity to continue to pray that God's presence enfolds these persons and helps them throw off the mask of hatred, racism, perversion and welcome faith and love in a world that is still filled with the personification of evil in many forms.  As we travel through the rest of the Easter weekend, I plan to hold them in grace and peace and if they should infiltrate again will unmute and preach forgiveness, for they know not what they do.

May the peace, grace and hope of Christ's resurrection at Easter 
buoy your spirit in these challenging days.

Friday, March 6, 2020

Long range contact of viral threat

Yesterday at work, I completed a spread sheet on potential lost booking for our rental facility due to the coronavirus threat.  At final count, $136,000 just for the months of March and April.  Since I work in a city job and was the most recent hire this year, I'm also looking at a layoff.

The residual effects of this virus will be felt in far-reaching ripples.  Our downtown Kent neighbor is host to one of the quarantine centers, which will mean a veritable ghost town for businesses north of Kent on Central Ave.  Whether due to overcaution or fear or panic, I can see the Denny's and Mitzel's near by suffering.

Last week, when our for a round of errands, we started thinking about where to get a quick dinner.  And a discussion started about the impact the virus may have on minimum wage food service workers who can't afford to stay home from work, may be providing care for children or elderly adults to supplement income and may not notice emerging symptoms or try to mask them to keep earning wages.  We ended up going to Mod Pizza figuring the wood fired oven and gloves on all staff would eliminate most of the germs.

The biggest threat is to our homeless population.  Just waiting for a short sighted political pundit to quip about this being the answer to the homeless problem - a good case of plague to wipe the slate clean. Homeless populations often already suffer from poor health, chronic coughs, lack of means to properly clean and fight germs.    I had an awful dream where tainted hand sanitizer was distributed to homeless shelters, akin to the smallpox blankets that wiped out entire Indian tribes - a story often attributed to myth, but what do the Native American history books say?

My own feelings on the viral threat alternate between complacency and moments of panic.  I carry Lysol wipes and hand sanitizer with me.  Tend to overthink fast food choices based on past history of cleanliness and food borne illness issues.  Order food that has been minimally handled by humans, etc.
If this is what's going to take us out, then so be it.  We've survived SARS, Avian Flu, annual flu and other maladies.

The true test is how will we extend ourselves to care for others if faced with the challenge.  People have needed better hand washing protocol for 50 years, so if that improves as a result of this viral threat, so much the better.

Sunday, March 1, 2020

Wedding Anniversary Gifts

This year, Mr. M and I celebrate our 30th Anniversary.  Or as we call it, 28 years with credit for time served since marriage is and institution and we were together for 2 years before committing it to law.  As I was reading the list of traditional wedding anniversary gifts, for 30 the gift is pearl.  Why is that ironic?  It takes constant irritation of an oyster's mantle for 5 to 20 years to form a pearl of any value.  Notice any correlations?  Me neither.

At any rate, since I was researching I looked into the other traditional anniversary gifts.  Only a few that I'll share.  This is the link to the chart I'm using, if interested: https://www.eternityrose.com/anniversary-gifts-by-year

1 - paper, 2- cotton, 3-leather, 4-silk... The first 4 years' is a win/win.  One spouse can get gifts covered in the lingerie department and both sides win. 
5 - wood, 6 - iron... then we get into the heavy metals, which means kitchen wares for her and golf clubs for him.  Otherwise known as stuff you could literally hurl at each other.  Is there any wonder that most marriages tank in the first 7 years?

10 gets to diamonds - figuring after 10 years the original wedding band is worth an upgrade.  Then we get into jewelry furs and watches.  Value added investments, since you get one for being married to the job at retirement, why not at a decade of marital bliss.

16-20 revamps the table wear with silver and porcelain.  21-25 goes back into the heavy metals in case you need more battle implements.  Pictures, sculpture and furniture round out to the end of the 2nd decade.

Then we get into the semiprecious stones and noticeably - this chart only goes to every 5 years because if you have survived marriage into the 35-60 range it's high time your kids start coughing up the goods and it better include tropical vacations and elaborate fetes.

At the end of our original wedding reception, we adjourned to our hotel and took a 2 hour nap, with no extra curricular activities.  We awakened to discover we had no wallets, no money and our shoes and clothes were in another vehicle.  So we drove to my grandmother's house, stopped to pick up our mail - found a wedding card with cash inside!  Had quick drive through since neither of us ate at the reception.  Arrived at my grandmother's famished, ate wedding cake and opened gifts.  THEN we went back to the hotel to the previously interrupted extracurriculars...

We determined that if we had it to do over again, we'd keep it small and simple and catered by KFC.  HENCE, for our 30th, we're only inviting 30 of our closest friends and family, keeping the BBQ theme and NO ONE is wearing hose or bow ties... period.

This time we're using any funds to replace our aging freezer.  Where's that one the traditional gift list?  Nowhere for good reason. That kind of gift is sure to get a spouse whacked and PUT in said freezer. 

It promised to be a grand time... and here are the then and now photos...

Social media fasting

Lent started last week.  I made the choice to give up social media access because I wanted to spend more time in positive activities rather than running down click bait rabbit holes, being goaded into online debate on political positions and free myself from judgement and being judgmental.

I spent more time walking outside, re-learned how to crochet and cranked out 3 lap quilts for a senior center to distribute to their clientele, cared for two ill friends, planned a party, read more, cooked healthy meals, went to the gym, worked out with friends, went out with friends, talked to my spouse more, snuggled my cat more, spent time with my parents, wrote more, and read far more than I had in the last year.  It was a very enriching time to learn more about the things I find drive my passions.  Caring for others, educating myself, creating something from nothing, enjoying simple times with those I treasure.

As two friends enter hospice for life ending illnesses, the focus of what is truly important becomes abundantly clear.  It's not what you give or have that matters to people, it's what you give of yourself - effort, knowledge, time, tasks they can no longer do independently, taking care of the daily minutia that is now beyond someone with dementia, making a little extra of a simple meal to share. 

What became readily apparent as Lent progressed is that though I intended to subtract something from my live to make room for more important endeavors, the result ended up enriching my life in more ways than what I relinquished.  It was hard to avoid going to facebook to see what friends and family were up to, and I slipped a few times... to be honest.  It was hard not to post a witty quip in Twitter and just share it with my husband.  It was hard to write several blog posts and SAVE them, rather than posting right away...

But the long term benefits far out weigh the brief inconveniences, as is usually the case.

Presidential Race 2020

When all is said and done in November, we will truly be able to say hindsight is 20/20.  We have many possible Democratic candidates vying for the nomination.  So much so that the need to turn over the House and Senate has been overshadowed by he said/she said debate sound bites and who is raking in the most donations.

What are the crucial issues that will need to be addressed?  Social?  Economic? Political?
Should we eliminate the electoral college?  Won't happen before this election...
The deplorable state of homelessness and homeless veterans and homeless elderly in this country?  What is the solution?
What about Medicare for all?  What about Social Security?  Will there BE any social sec for the future?
What can we do about the economy to help new graduates afford all the things they need to survive besides paying student loans?
What is to become of the out of control housing market?

My level of frustration is that while several candidates want to address the state of student loan poverty driving owers into bankruptcy, homelessness and under employment to make ends meet, those of us who are severely sacrificing to save and pay as we go for education to minimize the economic effect on recent grads will get nothing for our dedication and foresight.  Our first son emerged from college with a BA in cinematic arts, currently works a contract job doing AV for hotels and owed $10K at the end of college, we ran short of funds his last year.  Sallie Mae kept telling him he didn't make enough to start paying back loans but neglected to tell him that they were continuing to compound his interest.  When we sold our family home, we paid off his now $12.000 in student loans thereby increasing his credit rating as well.  A win/win most would say, except that he is now plagued by constant marketing calls and has to regularly check his credit report against identity theft.  If we had it to do over, we'd pay off 1/2.

Our second son is a year away from graduation.  We are trying to pay month to month to avoid the same ed loan trap with him.  This arrangement has necessitated him to reduce credit hours, take a 20 hour a week campus job, have mom come out of temporary retirement due to job burnout to take a 30 hour a week job, and takes a good portion of our disposable income to make come to fruition, including an occasional loan from grandparents when pay days hit too far from tuition due dates.  For the first time in years, we are living paycheck to paycheck as our home mortgage and tuition payments are nearly equal.  BUT we make too much to qualify for tuition grants.  So we're stuck between proverbial hard place and wall.  Kid could take more credit hours, but then couldn't work (campus rules) so he could graduate earlier.  There is no way to win.  Will we get any tax credits for paying as we go?  Remains to be seen.

But others who rack up debt and want it erased will have a plan for that?  Life isn't fair and our kids' education is a worthwhile investment, but it would be nice to see a break even point on the horizon.  Have them pay off our mortgage?  Assisted living expenses?  Funeral home expenses?  At what point do we get a break for doing 'the right thing' and foregoing vacations and new vehicles and updating appliances and making what we have last just a few years longer?  Where's the Warren plan for that?

My overall hope is that the Dem candidates will pool their resources and assemble a kick ass cabinet once Trump is defeated with Warren revamping college ed costs like she did consumer spending advocacy.  With Pete Buttigeig in charge of foreign policy, we could mend so many strained relationships that our wall building, insult hurling POTUS has committed against us.  With Bloomberg guarding US funds with the same diligence that he guards and invests his own, we could be a contender again.  Each taking personal responsibility for an area of their own expertise and coming up with a collaborative plan that reaches across the aisles to formulate a policy that will cure more than it cuts. With Bernie at the helm with the support of the best and brightest the Dems have to offer, America could be great again, not because of red hats, but because of the minds and creative genius NOT found below the hats.  Make America care again.  Make America united again.  Make America matter again.  Take America back from hate, rage and indifference. 

Viral Frenzy

The corona virus has claimed its first victim in WA and the ensuing fear and hysteria is sad and at times comical if it weren't so off base.  Viruses mutate at every transmission.  People are noting that human coronavirus is found as one of the 99% of germs eliminated by Lysol products.  In general, are you planning to ingest Lysol to protect yourself?  People think Corona beer is related to corona virus and are refusing to buy it based on that bias.  Drug stores are running out of face masks and hand sanitizer. 

The true travesty will be when the virus hits the most vulnerable.  I don't mean the young, the old and the immune system compromised.  The homeless and those who cannot afford to stay home from work to tend to their illness or who will be caring for ill family members as the only employed person in a family.  The family leave system in WA is already being taxed and taking longer to reimburse those who are eligible to utilize the benefit. 

Our out of control homeless community is often plagued by frequent illness.  If the corona virus takes hold of a homeless encampment, it could be devastating.  For volunteers, for health care workers, for first responders, for those who go in to clean up the aftermath of the crisis.  The effects are far-reaching and unable to be fathomed how far it will reach into those who feel insulated.  Fast food workers caring for ill and vulnerable family members at home.  Those who don't recognize early symptoms due to mental debilitation or dependencies that leave them ill often.  The many without access to medical care, preventative factors or who can't read cautionary signage in public places to comply with safety measures.  We are as vulnerable as our weakest links.

At our home church,  where we serve the homeless a free meal several times a week, all of our bottles of hand sanitizer were stolen this week.  Fear driving desperation.  Someone who can't afford the protective measures, resorted to stealing.  What will others resort to for protection?  Medical insurance fraud?  Jeopardizing the health of others to get ahead?  The world is a crazy place full of folks who feel the rules and mores don't apply to them.  I'm fearful of the hype and fear overtaking reasonable reactions.